Re-Entry

Re-entry is such a unique experience. Unlike when you are first going to a foreign place and you know there will be new things and have an open mind to them, you expect to be able to fit right back in as you were before. The thing that has most caught me off guard (other than often attempting to get in the wrong side of the car) is how much I've forgotten. Things about my house, like the awkward half stairs, which towel rack is mine in the bathroom, and where my clothing is or should go, seemed to have vanished from my consciousness. There have been times where I just had to sit on the floor in a ball because I felt so overwhelmed. Other times I broke down because of leaving behind the kids that need my love in South Africa. Yet I know this is where God has called me to be right now, and I choose to trust Him. It has been beyond amazing to reconnect with friends and family, but things are different than they used to be. I've changed as a person, and so have they. Not only that but circumstances are different. The real thing to keep in mind is: what is worth it? My temptation is to attempt to do everything and keep up relationship with everybody and not take time for myself or sleep. But that doesn't bring God glory and is in fact disobedience. So that's intense.

I'm currently in the "I'm about to have a job" zone with doing odd jobs until it comes through. I've finally set up multiple ministries and am beginning to find my niche and am figuring out how to live here again. Please keep me in your prayers as I continue to process and get back in the swing of things. And thank you for your support all along the way.


P.S. I WENT TO JAMAICA AND SURPRISED TIM AND IT WAS PERFECT. 
It was the best Valentine's Day and anniversary ever <3 Here is a picture on the beach but we are now both back in Denver and ministering and doing life together.